[Pa-furry] Question, please be hounest

[xanderfoxjsc at juno.com]

I am just being paranoid.. or am i being given a subtle hint that I am
not welcome?  Have I become
at some point the type of person people only speak  about in revilement
or disgust? has it been
deemed I should be ignord untill I go away?  Of that I shouldn't be
helped untill I change something
about my behavior or lifestlye?  if thier is a strong feeling I should be
frozen out or blacklisted it's
unessicary, just ask me to go away and I will with out fuss.  I ask this
because well when i ask for help 
I generaly am offered none or very little and I'm starting to fear it's
not just a conicidence.  Of course 
another part of me simply fears that crimstances make it so despite the
desire to assist me it's just not
possible.  If my fears are infact the case please let me know I will
simply go quietly.